How far can you go for love?

She sits at the front seat in the class. She's just another diligent classmate and just like other typical girls who does all her homework. And ya we guys grab her book to finish up our works at last minutes. That's how things were until this one day I came across her with a another friend of mine. There was a sudden change on her face, she was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen then. She had this smile, I couldn't take my eyes of her and right then I decided she is the ONE. So how far am I willing to go for her?

A firefly flew by her side and she shined throughout the moment. At that moment I saw that smile again, I wonder why. As she disclosed to me she has never seen a firefly throughout her life and right then I decided  it's time to hunt some fireflies. All I wanted was to see that smile again but I didn't know it will take me miles away. I walked by the park, explored the swamp and walked through the forest. It took me 4 days to find a perfect spot where fireflies exist. And finally I cherished the moment by showing her the glow of victory that enlighten my darkness. She saw those fireflies, I can see those eyes were so mesmerized and there I saw her smile which brought heaven to earth. I caught one of those firefly and let her touch it, I could see she was at the top of the world. I remember those lips thanking me instead I have to thank her for giving me that moment. I turned into an Entomologist for HER I guess.

Then there was this day, and we were watching a Korean Drama. And there was this particular scene which shows meteor shower. She expressed she always wanted to see a meteor shower. And there falls an obligation on my shoulder, I need to show her meteor shower somehow. But how? I thought we cant see those things here in Malaysia and we need more tools in order to view it. So I made some research. Thanks to human's best creation; Google I came across this information about Perseids Meteor Shower which falls on 12 August. It can be seen during the dark hours before dawn with bare eyes perhaps one or two every minute. Hence I packed some necessities and brought her to the top of a hill on that night and waited. She fell asleep but I waited. Right then i couldn't believe my own eyes, I saw the first one myself. I woke her up and her drowsiness vanished just like that after seeing her first glowing rock from sky. Then there it is a meteor shower falls like rain, I was sitting by the woman I love looking at the beauty of nature. I saw that happy face of hers so adorable just like baby reacts when it got it's first footstep. At that moment only one thing ran in my mind, I promise I would never  be the cause of even a single drop of her tears. And there I was, an Astronomer for a month for HER.

But all my dreams shattered when she chose someone else instead of me. But I cant stop loving her. So I did more even after I knew she's not mine. She started to involve in social services, an effort to form One Family under God or shall I say bring World Peace. She followed her man since he was active in such activities even before this. Hence I followed her to all the camps she attends and involve myself in social services just to stay near her. And I started to enjoy somehow that and got myself inner-peace since helping others is a noble thing to do. We always move together all the time and at times her man will come in between. That would be my heart-breaking moment yet I just face it just to stay with her all the time. I did all the things that I've never done in my life for charity purpose with her. Throughout that period I was not myself, I can feel that I was doing something against my will just to be with her. I became a Social worker for HER.

Finally, something beyond my expectation happened. Both of them(she and her man) caught into an accident when they were coming back from a vacation. They were severely injured. She was in coma for quite sometime. While he was badly injured and fighting for his life due to blunt trauma in liver. His whole liver was badly injured and he needed a transplant. My blood group matched  and fulfilled all the criteria for liver transplantation. At first I thought his death will open my door. Maybe his death will give me space to get back with her therefore I should let him die. But at one point, it strike my mind that he is her only happiness. If he dies she will suffer from the loss. I cant imagine her face when she woke up one day found out he is not alive anymore. I remembered my promise that I would never be the cause of even a single drop of her tears. Finally I donated half of my Liver in order to save the love of her life. It doesn't matter if I did not get a life with her, all I want is her to be happy always. I just want that smile remains forever in her life. Ever since then I just disappeared from her life and didn't see her again. Finally I became a Saint because of HER.

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Love is Blind?

LOVE. Is it honey for bear or bear for honey? Some describe it is as Left Out Vulnerable Event. While some interpret it as Largest Optimistic  Valentines Effect. When we are done with the ignition part or shall I say when love blooms everything seems to be unconditional. But when you slowly raise the gear to hit the top, all type flaws we come across. So when some wise man said Love is Blind, a question pops up into my mind "Are you sure?" If it's believed to be blind then why people could overVIEW it with different perceptions. Some bookworms who came to University just to hit consistent 4.0 will say love is just hormonal which we could control ourselves from falling in it, no one loves for real, it's just about heading to bed. While some would say love is divine and pure feelings with no indication of it's existence and no timeliness for it's destruction, how sweet. All the above answer is correct, yet it strikes a major question why Love is known to be blind and yet still fails.

Now talking about love is blind, lets see some scenarios which are inter-related. Before I proceed I would like to remind that love is seen in a smaller scope of inter-personal relationship for now. Do not relate with love towards mother,nature, country or any other elements as you like. First and foremost, the Adam hoods as they see their Eve will apparently fall in love and start to love whatever they see in them and their ultimate acts(including the way they sneeze, burp etc etc). Commencing themselves with whatever she's in to. She will be the most beautiful and gold hearted woman in the world. Now let see the after effects, soon when they are into relationship the guy's sense of belongingness raise to the max and concern every single thing she does. Some things will be different from what he expected before he get committed. Of course all the people have expectations you know. Ok the next phase will be FILL IN THE BLANKS syndrome. Where Mr.Adam will start to compare his Eve with another Eve who fulfills his expectations which his Eve failed to do so. Confused? Don't be. So he will start to fill in the blanks, all his expectations will be filled upon a another girl which seem to be fulfilling what his girlfriend failed to do. At the end of the day his girl friend will be the ugliest and worst woman in the world.

Second scenario, Miss Eve falls for every actions of Mr.Adam. He is a perfect gentleman. He is genuine and doesn't show fake self. When Eve has expectations.  All she expect is more Attention and Importance than others. It seems like 2 simple words, but it projects thousands of definitions in her dictionary. At the letterhead of her love story, a girl would say I'm ok with the way you are, I don't care if you don't call or text that often and I don't mind you mixing with other girls. Average of 3 months, a contradiction to the terms before occurs. The next Phase will be ANSWER MY QUESTIONS sessions. Why you didn't reply my text? Why didn't you call me yesterday? Or that girl is more important than ME? And then Mr. Adam recalls that this is not what she agreed upon before they get committed. So, now Mr.Adam will be seating at a bench and wonders where did I do wrong, If I'm possessive I am Dominant and Not Considerate person while If i'm not Possessive I'm not giving enough Attention and  Importance to her. What should I do? As it prolongs, he will be the most barbaric non understanding man for her.

Scenario No.1 has 3 possible conclusions. 1)Mr.Adam will try his best to show that the blame is on her 2) The act of nobleness where Mr.Adam will display as if she wont be happy with him since he is way more bad guy than she thinks he is and she deserve a better person 3) last but not least, he will try to irritate her till she come up with the keyword that revolves all the 3 possibilities, "BREAK UP". At the end of the day he wants to be the good guy. For the Scenario No.2 only one possible conclusion. "You are not the man I fall in love with, you've changed and I think this is it." So i wonder, if Love is Blind and they can love unconditionally why such conclusion occurs. If you check your friends Facebook status you can see this commonly happens among your friends....FSF( Facebook Status Flow) : 4 level = Single > In a Relationship >  It's complicated > Single  OR  5 level = Single  >  It's complicated > In a Relationship >  It's complicated > Single. 

Now the verdict says, When that wise man said "Love is Blind" he was right!! But he forgot the additional fact that "Love is Blind But Lovers have Visions". Basically there are two implicit meanings which we have to understand here, where "Lovers have Visions" means those lovers see things with their eyes/mind rather than heart. Everything is about tangible things around them and best part is, it spots differences more than common things among them. And the other meaning is that "Visions" can be best replaced with Future EXPECTATIONS. So as you can see Love is always blind, that is why when you first fall in love you didn't see any flaws or defects in that person since it involves heart. As it gets deeper there is a battle between Heart and Mind which mostly Mind will take control. That's when Lovers starts to have expectations towards each other and creates conditional love on each other. So kill that EXPECTATIONS and practice ACCEPTATION. Because love is not about EXPECTING, it's about ACCEPTING. Stop looking at the differences and start finding the common things you people share. If the Adam in 1st scenario accepted Eve the way she is, she will still the be the most beautiful and gold hearted woman in the world for him, vice versa for 2nd scenario Adam will still remain as perfect genuine gentleman.

To put in the nutshell, those who felt the bright side of it will see it as Honey for Bear. In addition, those who went through hell will say it is  Bear for Honey. So don't test the Subjectivity and start to love unconditionally. The amazing thing is that even a Penguin chooses a mate, a best mate and they stay together for life. But whats wrong with us humans? Remember "Love is Blind, but Lovers have Visions"

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Paulo Coelho

This is few quotes of Paulo Coelho which captured and inspired this soul of mine.

“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

“You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.”

“The wise are wise only because they love. The fool are fools only because they think they can understand love.”

“You can become blind by seeing each day as a similar one. Each day is a different one, each day brings a miracle of its own. It's just a matter of paying attention to this miracle.”

"When you find your path, you must not be afraid. You need to have sufficient courage to make mistakes. Disappointment, defeat, and despair are the tools God uses to show us the way."
— Paulo Coelho (Brida)

"Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong. Even a stopped clock is right twice a day."
— Paulo Coelho (Brida)

"I learned that the world has a soul, and that whoever understands that soul can also understand the language of things."
— Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist)

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